Controlling One's Temper

A lot of people may not know this about me but I have a pretty bad temper that I keep control of really well. I try to smile it off or not let it get to me because often I just say its not worth it. I think after a while that have been the normal for me and I became somewhat passive and chilled.

But there is a few people and situations that can really get me angry to the point that I can blow up and yesterday I had a case like that. For the sake of my family and to prevent anymore drama, I try to keep my mouth shut and lock myself in my room so I can avoid my grandparent. We are kind of like two chemicals that should not be combined...or literary you will have an explosion.

Well I won't go into the boring details but I was at the point that I was yelling at the top of my lungs and moments away from knocking out my grandparents. I am not exaggerating...I had my fist balled up and I had to bite my tongue to stop. Yeah it hurts when I eat things now.

What pisses me off more than my grandparents is know that they can get me like that. Need to learn more control because one day I doubt I will be able to hold back.

What the Helll!!!

Phally:
you need to get ur ass out of the house

Kan:
hahaha man now i know how han feels...its so comfortable being at home all the time
haha...i am getting addicted
work and then home
maybe take nap...eat dinner
play a game, chat a bit, watch a movie and then sleep
so stressless!!

Phally:
you're ready for marriage!!!!

Kan:
HELL NO

Phally:
HAHAHAHA

Re-thinking this marriage business...slowly I don't think I am the marriage type
Single Life Rules!!!

Getting A Part Time Job?!?
Recently I have been doing nothing on the weekend except sleeping and working out in the gym.  So with that in mind I thought to myself maybe I should get a part time job and put that spare time to good uses - make a little money on the side.  There is an opening at the Apple Store at Montgomery Mall that a good friend can refer me...so it can be a sure thing.  Now the question is - Am I willing to give up my weekend?  I would be working 4 hours after work on Friday and 8 hours on Saturday and Sunday...so that would be a total of 20 hours a week - not too bad!  And since it 20 hours...I would meet the mininum requirement to get some benefits like stock options if I work there long enough.

This is what I would be giving up:
Sleeping In
Lion Dance
Spur of the moment dinners/parties/fun times
Working out on the weekend
Alone-time

Thing is what I would be gaining:
Money/Benefits
Meeting new people
Possible networking

Reducing My Bulkiness
It really dawned on me that being too bulky doesn't work to my benefit.  For one, there is no way I can maintain the muscle I have now because it just take ways too much work and time.  Not to mention that I am probably doing more damage than good in the long run when I am benching 300-310 pounds vs 150-225 pounds.  Just thinking about the stress I am putting on my body.  Second of all, when I get older, I don't want to have a sagging body and man titties when my muslces goes to hell.  Third is the fact that I can't pick up my own body...meaning pull-ups and hand stand push-ups...annoys me alot!

So I am changing my routine to do more toning/getting smaller, strengthen the current muscles I have, and increasing the endurance of them.  This is my basic workout outline:

1. Stretch for 10 to 15 mins
2. Do cardio until I burned 1000+ cal
3. Stretch for 5 mins
4. For weights, I will be doing 4 sets of 20 to 15 reps of weights 50% to 60% of my max weight for each type of exercises I do.

But I am keeping one day a week to do max training.  I don't want to loose the fact I can bench 300...yeah its a pride and manly thing =P

Been doing this for the past two week.  This is a really different type of burn and soreness.  Still getting use to it.